ok i tried one last time tonight
I SAID :i have neva felt the way i does wen i am wit u, around u, or on the phone with you with anyone else and i really do have strong feelings for you but unlike urself my feelings towards you is more than a friend. i cant see my life without you, even doh most of the time i am moody i kno Y ok, iz becuase of the fact that I love someone with all my heart and THis person tHinks i am not ready for a relationsHip and does not see me in that way and its eating me insided, i does be up after we talk on the phone just thInking about wat if he feels the same way but the truth is i jus fooling myself because you dont love me in that way. wat am i suppossed to do?
HE SAID : u are supposed to have patience..u are supposed to talk to me..u are supposed to accept life as it is realise that we dont always get wat we want,i totally understand how u feel,and it hurts me too that i cant make u happy now..but i have to deal with my life right now..ok well i accept that u are ready for a relationship..i am just not,..look at my situation right now..i am not happy with my life right now,i am nto happy with who i am , i am not happy with d way things are happening to me..i dotn want it to affect anyone else either,i dont want to have to taek out my stress on anyone..that wont be fair,its my shit..i have to deal with it..